So, I just wanted to take some time to make sure everyone knows that I do not hate or harbor any bad feelings towards my ex. Yes, I vented quite a bit, but I appreciate that he was honest with me and that says quite a bit about him. I still think he’s a great guy and hope the best for him. I truly hope that we can still be friends. I know that might take some time, and that’s fine. I believe that it will be worth it. Things don’t always work out the way we want them to, but that’s part of life. What I’m most frustrated with is the fact that I’ve been in 4 or more failed relationships this year alone. I don’t like that, but I believe that it is going to help me in the long run. Why? Well, I now seen some of the mistakes I’ve been making. Hopefully I can learn from these mistakes as well as work on making myself a better person until Mr. Right and I find each other.
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So, I got some bad news last night. I kind of saw this coming, but it still doesn’t make it any easier. Lately, it seems I can’t catch a break. It’s just short relationship after short relationship. Is it too much to ask for someone to be truthful? If you don’t want a relationship or don’t feel you can be in one, then just say so beforehand and save me all the hurt. I give and I give and don’t get anything in return. I’m so sick and tired of it. I still care about him and there’s the whole trip to Omaha, too. I’ve already paid for it and of course, it’s non-refundable. All I can do is hope for the best, seeing as I really don’t know anyone else in Omaha. So, some of you have wanted to know more information about this “twromance” that has come to light. Caleb and I have followed each other for some time now. I’ve always thought Caleb was a really nice guy; however, we never really talked in depth before. We recently started talking more on twitter after my last breakup and then within the past week or so we started texting. This is also in the same time that oh 4 or 5 other guys started talking to me. I was almost to the point of giving up on believing that there was one guy for me, so this “twromance” was unexpected to me. Caleb and I started talking as friends and as we got to know one another more and more it became evident that we were meant to be together. We are so alike it’s amazing. We have similar goals for relationships and both really long for the same thing: a monogamous relationship and even to get married. In just the past week I have learned that you can’t be in a relationship because you’re afraid of being alone, you have to really love yourself and not find someone that “completes” you, but someone that complements you. I truly believe that Caleb is this man. We can talk about God together, and we have. We’ve even discussed looking for a church together once we are able to be together. Never before has anyone been so open to speak about God. It’s very refreshing to me! So many gays choose to be agnostic because of the number of hypocrites out there, it’s a shame. I’m sure that I have left a lot of stuff out of this story, but is is the main points. I feel so blessed for sure! This song means so much to me right now. I’ve been through a lot in the past month and I thought I wouldn’t make it through, but guess what I have and I’m so happy. I cannot express in words how blessed I feel right now. I know it’s all part of God’s plan. I know there are many who don’t believe in God and especially gays seeing as how many “Christians” look upon homosexuality, but I believe in God and believe that he truly knew me before I was formed in my mother and he knew I was gay and that I would spend my life with one man. And I truly believe that I have now found that man! I cannot express how blessed I feel to have started talking to him! Although we are not close geographically, but that doesn’t matter, we will be together when the time is right and we will spend the rest of our lives together! Caleb, I love you! You have become my strength! So, it’s been a while since I’ve updated my blog. I’ve been kind of busy with work and class and all that jazz… I’m trying to graduate this December with my Master’s in Computer Science! I will be so glad to have that out of the way! I’ve been so tired of school lately, I have no motivation for it. It’s gotten boring and I really don’t like it! I think that’s because I’ve lost the desire to do what I’m doing right now. However, I’m hoping to start working on an Associates in Photographic Technology with a concentration in Commercial Photography in the Fall at one of the area community colleges. That’s something that I really want to do, I enjoy taking pictures and being somewhat creative. Anyway, I’m hoping for a rather productive week and hoping it won’t take me so long to update my blog again… 1. oh hai! 2. What’s the best piece of advice anyone has ever told you? Love DanielJUK xx 3. would you marry me? 4. When is it “time to make the doughnuts”? I have to be honest that for a while there, life wasn’t great. I was stressing about a relationship and I know that’s not what should be done. Well, the relationship ran it’s course and we parted ways as friends. The very next day, I was online on bigmuscle.com and was looking through those who had selected “I Like” to my profile. There were a decent number that had come in since I started dating my ex. Well, as I was looking through them, I came across this 25 year old from Charlotte. I pulled up his profile and was amazed to see who it was, I had met him once at Sidelines in Charlotte when I went with my ex and was introduced to him. I thought he was very handsome then and now that I was single, I figured why not at least say hey, so I did. He replied to my message and that’s where it all started. We started chatting and we’re very alike. We’re both country boys from NC, although from different sides of the state. I can’t tell you how happy I am. I haven’t been this happy in a long time. He’s such a gentleman and I feel that I am the luckiest man alive! I hope that he is the ONE! Sometimes I wonder why we go through things in life. Right now is one of those times. I know that in the end I will be ok but I have so many questions right now but no answers in sight. This is rather stressful for me. I’m trying to be patient and relax but its really not easy for me right now… I’ve made many mistakes in my life and while I know they are mistakes, I don’t regret making them. I have learned by making these mistakes. The biggest majority of mistakes are financial. I have been a shopaholic in the past, I’ve been working on that and now I’m in the process of paying off the debt that I amassed by doing so. I have never (nor do I ever) expect for someone to bail me out. I got myself into this mess and I have to get myself out of it. And with me being down to only one job, I have to be way more of a better steward of my finances than ever. I have to find ways to cut back, no matter if I like it or not, and that has lead to some rather tense exchanges between my boyfriend and I. I know that finances are always a sticky subject, but I have to make adjustments to my spending habits and while they may not be the choices that others would make, I have to do what is right for me. Which seems to be reducing the amount I drive, which means going to see my boyfriend less often; however, I-85 runs both ways, right? I hope this doesn’t upset him, but I just wanted to say this. After reading and actually hearing what Rep. Virginia Foxx said about Matthew Shephard’s death, I decided to email her because she was TOTALLY INCORRECT! Here’s what I wrote: “Rep. Foxx, I also tried to call but couldn’t leave a voicemail as her mailbox is full… |
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