Jonathan’s Blog

I would just like to start out by saying, I am not going to seek out revenge for what you have done, because that is not up to me.  What has been done is done and there’s not taking it back or changing what has been done.  Remember that what you sow, you will also reap.  If you reap hatefulness, you will reap that.  You have just made me more skeptical of everyone!

I feel sorry for you that all you have to do is tattle on other people!  If you have a problem with me, then why not discuss it with me before going to someone else?  That is SO juvenile!  I don’t know why people can be so childish.  I can only pray that you grow up.  I know that I can be childish, but if I have a problem with someone, I will let them know before I go to a higher up.

Again, other than being completely taken aback by this, I am not mad. I am upset.  I will try my best to behave cordially toward this person, but contact will be shallow, as I know that I cannot trust this person.  Oh well, there is always drama in life, you just have to make the best of it, and that is what I am going to try to do!

So this afternoon while at work, I got a call from my dad. He said he had a request for me and I said ok. He proceeded to say that I needed to not talk about anything gay to them. They simply cannot take it. Lately my mother has been under a lot of stress and has had some issues with dizzy spells because of it. He somewhat implied that me talking about being gay and especially talking about how my new boyfriend and I met was the cause of some of this stress. Then he proceeded to tell me (yet again) that they are still hoping and praying that I will see that this (being gay) leads to no where and I will repent and turn from my wicked ways. They still think it is a choice. Why, oh why, would I CHOOSE to be gay? As I said in an earlier blog entry, the first time my parents found out about me being gay, they tried to get me to change by seeing my pastor and NOTHING changed other than me feeling depressed and so unhappy. I still had all the feelings for men that I had before, I just felt it was wrong because they were tellling me to think that way.

So, I’m going to try to still stay in touch with my parents, but they are making it so easy for me to shut them out of my life because of this. I don’t know if they’ll ever want to meet my boyfriend. And God forbid I actually get so far as to have a partner, or even better am able to get married and have a husband!!! Oh well, hopefully in time they can come to accept it. It’s just so hard for me to comprehend because it’s almost been a year since I came out to them. I love them but don’t understand why they think I have changed. I am the same Jonathan that I’ve always been, I just like men and am totally cool with others knowing that!! And in my honest opinion, if anyone has a problem with that, it is THEIR problem!!!

Everyone needs to know that they should vote No on Prop 8 in California. While I do not live in California, I believe it is the right of any two people who love each other to be able to get married. I mean marriage as it stands isn’t some sacred thing people claim it to be. For instance, look at the freaking divorce rate and how many couples get married and don’t even make it a year. So therefore, everyone in California, vote No on Prop 8!!!

here is my goulash recipe for those who may be interested in it:

1 lb (or so) ground turkey or ground beef
1/2 of a 1 lb box of whole grain (or regular) elbow macaroni
1 can condensed tomato soup
1 tablespoon chili powder
Plenty of cheese (different kinds, ie, cheddar, italian blend), the more the better for me!
Ketchup

Cook the macaroni to specifications on box and drain.

Brown the ground turkey or beef over medium high heat and drain. In the same skillet, pour the tomato soup and cut the heat on low and melt cheese into soup.  Add the chili powder.  Stir in the drained ground turkey or beef.  Add ketchup until the color turns to an orange from red. Stir in the drained macaroni and viola, it’s done! Simple but yet tasty, well in my own humble opinion!

Well, I had a date last night and it went well!

I met him on facebook, although we work at the same university. We chatted online for about 5 hours or so on friday night and were texting back and forth on saturday and we decided to get together at a steakhouse for dinner. So we met at 7pm for dinner and I thought it was something how when I pulled into the parking lot, the only place I could park was in the parking spot facing his car. So we both got out of our cars and said hi and walked into the steakhouse and put our name on the list to get a table. While waiting for a table, we started talking and it never really stopped! We talked about some of everything and had a great time! We ate dinner, I had a steak and he had chicken. After dinner we kept talking and then finally decided to leave the restaurant. We just went outside and talked. We talked until about 11:30 or so and then started saying goodbye, but couldn’t stop talking. We both could have stayed later and kept talking, but needed to get home and get in the bed. We finally hugged and got in our cars and left. I wanted to kiss him, but wasn’t sure it I should.

When I got home I texted him saying I wanted to kiss him but didn’t know if I should and he replied with saying the same. We both want to see each other again and I cannot wait to see him again! We’ve been texting each other like crazy today as well!

Ok, so normally I reserve judgement on people until they actually do something that has an impact on me and now I can pass judgement on Parking Services here at UNCG.

The guys from the Teaching and Learning Center (TLC( came to install or 46″ HDTV and other equipment in our building and were parked in what is deemed a supposed tow-away zone.  Normally I surely don’t condone such things, but hey it’s raining and they have expensive electronics and they’re part of the University and are trying to deliver and install something for the University.  Well, a woman from Parking Services (one of the higher ups) saw this and came into the building on her high horse and told one of the guys from the TLC that he needed to move, he was in a tow away zone.  He said he needed to be close because of the rain.  She said she’d show him where he could park only 15 feet away and they went outside.  A few minutes later the guy comes back in telling his co-worker to pack it up, they were not going to install it today.  They couldn’t park there and couldn’t lug stuff in through the rain. So, we have a HDTV sitting in the floor hoping that it will not be stolen before the come to mount it to the wall above the fireplace.

I now believe that Parking Services is Crazy!!  I am so glad that I no longer support them and pay over $33 to park my car on campus! I am so happy that I bike to work!!!  Under no circumstance do I want to drive again, I don’t want to pay them $6 to park in the deck for even one day!!!

Now this is something I can wholly promote!