After I got off work today, I was hoping for a good evening of spending time with my boyfriend, but all that changed after he got here. He told me that he felt we were at two different places and he didn’t know when, if ever he’d be ready to take our relationship to the next level. He also said he didn’t feel that it was fair to me for him to ask me to wait until he was ready. I somewhat understand that, but I have to admit, I love him, and still do, eventhough we broke up. He was pretty much my dream guy. Everything I wanted… A muscular guy, had a decent job, cared about me, wanted to spend time with me, but it didn’t pan out, and well, that’s occasionally what happens. Although I’m hoping that something might happen to change his mind, I kind of doubt it. So, I guess I’m once again single for the time beind and surely not looking to jump into a new relationship anytime in the too near future. I thinK i’m goin to approach it in a similar way to what happened with this one, I’m not going to be looking for a relationship, but one will find me. I just pray that I can get trough this without feeling too lonely. It’s going to be really hard on my living by myself now, I probably won’t be spending too much time at home alone anymore, don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it.
Anyway, I just want to say that I have nothing against my I guess ex, I wish him the best and just want to say that I still love you and pray that you find what you need and that you have all that you need.
