So this afternoon while at work, I got a call from my dad. He said he had a request for me and I said ok. He proceeded to say that I needed to not talk about anything gay to them. They simply cannot take it. Lately my mother has been under a lot of stress and has had some issues with dizzy spells because of it. He somewhat implied that me talking about being gay and especially talking about how my new boyfriend and I met was the cause of some of this stress. Then he proceeded to tell me (yet again) that they are still hoping and praying that I will see that this (being gay) leads to no where and I will repent and turn from my wicked ways. They still think it is a choice. Why, oh why, would I CHOOSE to be gay? As I said in an earlier blog entry, the first time my parents found out about me being gay, they tried to get me to change by seeing my pastor and NOTHING changed other than me feeling depressed and so unhappy. I still had all the feelings for men that I had before, I just felt it was wrong because they were tellling me to think that way.

So, I’m going to try to still stay in touch with my parents, but they are making it so easy for me to shut them out of my life because of this. I don’t know if they’ll ever want to meet my boyfriend. And God forbid I actually get so far as to have a partner, or even better am able to get married and have a husband!!! Oh well, hopefully in time they can come to accept it. It’s just so hard for me to comprehend because it’s almost been a year since I came out to them. I love them but don’t understand why they think I have changed. I am the same Jonathan that I’ve always been, I just like men and am totally cool with others knowing that!! And in my honest opinion, if anyone has a problem with that, it is THEIR problem!!!