I would like to thank everyone who has sent me a message or something to help me through this tough time. I know that things will be ok, eventually. It’s going to be a process that will take some time, but I will be ok in the end. I’m young and I know that love will find me. I am surely not going to go hunting for it, as that never seems to work. Again, thanks to all of my friends!
Oh, and especically thanks to my new part time boss for taking me out last night. It was great to be able to go out and get me mind off of things. Ever better to have some silly conversation and share some beer.
After I got off work today, I was hoping for a good evening of spending time with my boyfriend, but all that changed after he got here. He told me that he felt we were at two different places and he didn’t know when, if ever he’d be ready to take our relationship to the next level. He also said he didn’t feel that it was fair to me for him to ask me to wait until he was ready. I somewhat understand that, but I have to admit, I love him, and still do, eventhough we broke up. He was pretty much my dream guy. Everything I wanted… A muscular guy, had a decent job, cared about me, wanted to spend time with me, but it didn’t pan out, and well, that’s occasionally what happens. Although I’m hoping that something might happen to change his mind, I kind of doubt it. So, I guess I’m once again single for the time beind and surely not looking to jump into a new relationship anytime in the too near future. I thinK i’m goin to approach it in a similar way to what happened with this one, I’m not going to be looking for a relationship, but one will find me. I just pray that I can get trough this without feeling too lonely. It’s going to be really hard on my living by myself now, I probably won’t be spending too much time at home alone anymore, don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it.
Anyway, I just want to say that I have nothing against my I guess ex, I wish him the best and just want to say that I still love you and pray that you find what you need and that you have all that you need.
Classes start today at The University of North Carolina at Greensboro, which is actually a week later than last year, as faculty and The Chancellor agreed to count exam days as instructional time and therefore we have one less week of classes. I’m only taking one class, as I work so much that I feel that is all I can handle. I only have one more class and comps to take to finish up my Masters. I look forward to finishing my Masters, but also know that with the completion comes the student loans into repayment time… I know it’s inevitable, so might as well start to face the reality…
Looking forward to Fall Kick-off today, all kinds of free stuff, and we all know that free stuff rawks!! Anyway, I’m supposed to be working, so I better get back to that…
well, as per my daily routine, i was talking to a former co-worker this morning and happened to notice this nice muscular guy on the computers by the Registrar’s Office and told her to look and she just kind of laughed a little, but dude was hot. so after talking to her for a few more minutes, he gets finished on the computer and proceeds to come see my former co-worker (she works in the information station for the Registrar’s Office, so rather common for people to come as her questions) and so i leave, as usual. well, i just went back to say hey again and she tells me that the guy didn’t have anything to ask her and had to try to make something up… meaning that she thinks he wanted to talk to me. well, sure i might have talked to him, but there’s no way i would leave my bf for anyone at this point in time… he means way too much to me… i <3 u!!!
Got some good news about an hour ago… I worked rather hard the past couple weeks trying to do well on Scavenja, an online photo-based scavenger hunt. Well, all that hard work paid off, I won and was notified that I won a free vacation from Hahn’s Travel. I’m not sure about any of the specifics yet, they’re going to mail me the information. But I can’t wait… but alas I will since class is starting next week and I’m not really going to be able to miss that… Not to mention that I really would like for my bf to go with me!!! Things are looking up..
Also, I’m currently reading Programming C# trying to teach myself C# so that I can then proceed to ASP.NET to add more qualifications to my resume.
Well, I’m hoping that today will be better! This morning, on my way to work, since I drove because I don’t want to bike home at 8:30 pm, just a bit worried about biking after dark, I decided to listen to Linkin Park and was listening to Numb and thought, that’s a great song and it really describes how I feel right now. So that is my new anthem!
Also, I had a really good leg workout this morning at the gym… hoping that things go well today!!
i really don’t know how much longer i can take working at my job. lately, i feel so under appreciated and undervalued. yeah, they want me to work but no one seems to care. to be honest, i’d almost like to quit so i could be somewhat happier. the only thing is there is no way i can quit because of course i have bills to pay and need my salary. i’m sitting here crying as i type this. i’ve been crying for about a hour so far and i’m not sure when it’ll stop… i really wish that i had some alcohol right now… maybe that would at least make me feel numb which would be a step up from right now… ok so now, i’ve stopped crying but still feel pretty bad… and not at all looking forward to having to be at work for over 12 hours tomorrow, especially considering that it is my anniversary and i haven’t seen my boyfriend in over a week due to our messed up work schedules…
Ok, so my trip to Phoenix was nothing like what I hoped it would be. Thank goodness my presentation went rather well, but that’s about all… Wednesday I went to the doctor and Thursday morning I went to the ER. Traveling and the climate change caused bad things for me. It’s going to be a slow healing process and I’m pretty much just going to have to deal with the pain… Well, things always happen for a reason…
Well, today hasn’t turned out the way I had wanted it to, but then again what’s new about that these days. I can’t wait until I go to Phoenix. I’m going to have so much fun! Can’t wait to go to that resort. It’s going to be awesome! At some point I’ll have to check out the lazy river that goes around the putt putt…
I’m surely hoping that today gets better soon… just disappointed that things can’t be like they should… At least I got to go to the gym this morning!
It’s been way too long since I posted on my blog and I’m sorry. Life has been somewhat boring, just busy with work as usual. I’m so glad to have tomorrow off! A week from monday I’ll be heading to Phoenix, AZ for a work conference. I can’t wait. It’s the only “vacation” that I’ll get this summer. I have plenty of time to take, but no where to go or any money to spend. At least this doesn’t require either of those, so it works out all around!!
