So last year was pretty rough for me, as many of you know. I hoped so much that 2010 would be better. It started out good, or at least I thought so. I met someone new and jumped head first into a relationship as usual, which wasn’t for the best this time. He was a really nice Guy but we just weren’t meant to be boyfriends, we didn’t talk much and that’s not good for any kind of relationship.
As that relationship was ending, I started talking to someone else, only as friends. I quickly realized that I deserved better that I was getting from my now ex and broke it off with him. Shortly after that I continued talking to the other guy and we found out just how alike we are. It’s been amazing and I’ve never felt better about a things. I’m trying my hardest not to project my thoughts about the future, which isn’t easy for me. I’m just taking it a day at a time and enjoying the ride. I’m looking forward to April 16 when he will be flying down here. I’m hoping for a great time and being able to introduce him to my friends.
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Living a day at a time
Life teaches
So, I just wanted to take some time to make sure everyone knows that I do not hate or harbor any bad feelings towards my ex. Yes, I vented quite a bit, but I appreciate that he was honest with me and that says quite a bit about him. I still think he’s a great guy and hope the best for him. I truly hope that we can still be friends. I know that might take some time, and that’s fine. I believe that it will be worth it. Things don’t always work out the way we want them to, but that’s part of life. What I’m most frustrated with is the fact that I’ve been in 4 or more failed relationships this year alone. I don’t like that, but I believe that it is going to help me in the long run. Why? Well, I now seen some of the mistakes I’ve been making. Hopefully I can learn from these mistakes as well as work on making myself a better person until Mr. Right and I find each other.
No on Prop 8
Everyone needs to know that they should vote No on Prop 8 in California. While I do not live in California, I believe it is the right of any two people who love each other to be able to get married. I mean marriage as it stands isn’t some sacred thing people claim it to be. For instance, look at the freaking divorce rate and how many couples get married and don’t even make it a year. So therefore, everyone in California, vote No on Prop 8!!!
I don’t know
Right now, I don’t exactly know how I feel. I have so many conflicting feelings and emotions going on right now that I can’t sort it all out. I know that I am feeling somewhat lonely but I am not sure how to go about fixing that. I know that at some point in the not to distant future I want to find someone to date and hopefully lead to more. There’s one big problem with that: a lot gay men are focused on sex only and don’t want a relationship. I want a relationship!!! I want to find someone to share my life with, the good and the bad. I want someone to be able to be honest with and him to be honest with me. I want him to be more interested in our relationship than sex. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not against sex, but that is surely not what the relationship needs to be based on. I also want to find someone who is not afraid of what others will think. Everyone has their own opinions, why do you need to worry about what they think? As long as you’re fine with it and I am too, then what does it matter? I guess that pretty much shows that I want someone who is out, I don’t want to have a sneak around, or have them lie to people in their lives because of that. What good is it if you have something great but yet cannot tell people you love about it? It’s pointless!
Ok, so I’ve ranted about what I want and don’t want. That I guess kind of helps me… I again want to say thank you to everyone who has been there for me through this tough time in my life. I don’t know what I would have done without you! You mean so much to me!!
thanks to everyone
I would like to thank everyone who has sent me a message or something to help me through this tough time. I know that things will be ok, eventually. It’s going to be a process that will take some time, but I will be ok in the end. I’m young and I know that love will find me. I am surely not going to go hunting for it, as that never seems to work. Again, thanks to all of my friends!
Oh, and especically thanks to my new part time boss for taking me out last night. It was great to be able to go out and get me mind off of things. Ever better to have some silly conversation and share some beer. 
never saw this coming
After I got off work today, I was hoping for a good evening of spending time with my boyfriend, but all that changed after he got here. He told me that he felt we were at two different places and he didn’t know when, if ever he’d be ready to take our relationship to the next level. He also said he didn’t feel that it was fair to me for him to ask me to wait until he was ready. I somewhat understand that, but I have to admit, I love him, and still do, eventhough we broke up. He was pretty much my dream guy. Everything I wanted… A muscular guy, had a decent job, cared about me, wanted to spend time with me, but it didn’t pan out, and well, that’s occasionally what happens. Although I’m hoping that something might happen to change his mind, I kind of doubt it. So, I guess I’m once again single for the time beind and surely not looking to jump into a new relationship anytime in the too near future. I thinK i’m goin to approach it in a similar way to what happened with this one, I’m not going to be looking for a relationship, but one will find me. I just pray that I can get trough this without feeling too lonely. It’s going to be really hard on my living by myself now, I probably won’t be spending too much time at home alone anymore, don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it.
Anyway, I just want to say that I have nothing against my I guess ex, I wish him the best and just want to say that I still love you and pray that you find what you need and that you have all that you need.